My Father

When you lose a father you feel like dying every day. First thing you think of when you wake up in the morning and the last thing you think of when you try to go to bed and you think of it all day long.  It’s one the most horrible tragedies one could possibly imagine. But if you can somehow find that inner strength through a simple sign that it’s okay, one got something to look forward to at the end of your path.

 

It’s not often that you could go behind the scene and recall the moment when you lose someone very close to you, but it happens every moment.

 

I remember one time you held me and said “What I am going to do without you in my life?” I was holding on to you and at that moment I never realize that what I will do without you? And those words would MEAN so much to me today.  

 

I was in bed and I got a feeling that something wasn’t right, I get out of the bed, I got dressed and I stood at the window looking at the cars coming and passing by, my heart kept raising by every minute hoping that everything please be okay. I was interrupted by phone ringing and my Mom saying that “Your Father isn’t well, I need you at the hospital and please be quick.” And at that moment I knew; I realized that my feeling being frantic was true.

 

I rushed to the hospital, nothing in my head just to be there as soon as I can.  And there I was, as if he was waiting for me for years, his eyes sparkle the moment he saw me. I hold his hand and said “hold on daddy, I am here, everything will be okay”. It was all the machine sounds beeping in my head & all that voices annoying me. I placed my hand to his heart, could hear his heartbeats, but soon I could felt that his heart stopped. He just closed his eyes, they came and told me that I had to leave.  I didn’t want to, I was afraid. Leaving my hand empty. Have to understand that I won’t be able to see him again. It was the end.

 

Even after 18 years I try to forget; just forget about it – I guess I can’t. It’s tough. But I treasure my Father in my heart, my soul & my entire life.

 

 

Shariqa Ahmed

Twitter: @shariqa_ahmed

 

The Walking Dead

 

 It is said that winning & losing is part of life, but there should be no lost is acceptable in character & no winning on arrogance. Its universal truth that the society which loses its ethics, moral & social responsibilities become dead by itself. The citizens are demoralized; they don’t care whether its dictatorship or democracy, they want justice. We live in a society where glass for drinking water are chained, in Masjid people are more concerned for their shoes instead of Sajda, where mothers kill their children, where cannibals dug graves & eat corpses, graveyard caretaker is addicted of necrophilia, where politicians play dirty games over bodies of poor, where correspondents becomes spy; no messenger is going to come & change this nation until they want to change themselves within.

 Question is who was supposed to guide us? We live in a society where sins are justified and value is associated with madness, the concept of halal & haram is old episode so why would Allah Almighty bless such state? Building a personality or building character of a human is firstly depended on parents, secondly the responsibility of teachers / guiders, thirdly it is the state’s job.

 Just a slap from parents over a mistake can clear the concept of right & wrong, but unfortunately parents support the wrong doings & hence there is punishment. The fear of doing wrong deeds is encouraged and by the time it strengthens in character building.

 Teachers the most undesirable profession in our country; are not respected the way they should be. There’s a concept that if one cannot do anything – can teach! Teaching is not adopted as a profession but just a necessity; those who get C or D grades try to educate children where they don’t even know what they are supposed to impart. On the other hand qualified teachers are neither respected nor paid well. Sometime the inappropriate behavior of students also effects the determination of the educators.

 On whole it’s a huge responsibility of the government on charisma structure of an individual. Breaking traffic signals, destroying public property & destroying ethics of good humans is a daily practice. Inflation has already made the life of a poor miserable. Unfortunately, to meet the daily necessities, one adopts the wrong way, either he will beg for mercy & he will be a burden on the society or he will turn out to be a criminal. Unfortunately, law enforcers ask for bribe from such criminals and demand for their share. Stealing taxes for luxuries of Government personals has produced a huge discrimination between Government & People. People curse democracy, because their voice is neither listened nor served. Young people who are considered the future of any nation are dying everyday. If count of deaths is within 8-10; it is considered that law & order situation is better today.

 When it comes to religious training, Allah Almighty has not directed that there should be long beard & shalwar to be over ankles will escape the Armageddon. Alhmadolliah that we are born in Muslim families, but have we ever thought that either we believe in what we were guided to believe? In fact we do evil and then we seek justification over that. We have stopped differentiating between right & wrong. Our religion has taught us to be human first, but we didn’t even start to that journey. Truth is if see a man lying or hurt on a street, people just ignore and leave as humanity within us is dead or they might do not want to get themselves into trouble. The quote that “JIs ne Aik Insan ki jan bachai os ne goya pori INSANYAT ko bachaya” doesn’t exists anymore.

 

Shariqa Ahmed

@shariqa_ahmed

 

I Turn To You (Mothers Day Special) By Christina Aguilera

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared,
And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there
- pushing me to the top.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got.
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and
I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing,
'Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend,
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
For the arms to be my shelter
through all the rain,
For truth that will never change,
For someone to lean on,
For a heart I can rely on through anything,
For that one who I can run to...
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
I turn to you... 


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